:: mood - rayer ::

taun ni rayer ak seminggu..
haha..malam ni bru balik kl..
walaupun sampai uma pg rayer..tp seronok!! :)
seharian aritu x tidow..
lepas pg kubur adik..kitorg stu family pg uma tok..
2 dua kg sebelah uma je..jd lepas g uma tok belah abah,lepak kt uma tok belah ma lak..
hehe..seharian duk kt kg..
lepas tu singgah kt uma kwn lame ak..die da nk fly..so..beraye la skali kt uma die..hehe
sebelah petang,balik uma..xlarat eh..
mate berat gler2..
tp mk sdare, pk sedara lak dtg..
xjd rancangn ak..tugas ak?? kt dpur jelaa..
mlm lak family ajak pg uma mk sdare..ak btul2 xlarat..
malass gler..kul 9 ak da tido..xpg la uma mk sdare..

rayer ke-2..

kwsan uma ak mmg jammed..

nk kuar jejalan pun xley coz de open-house..

seharian duk uma jela..rayer ke-3 pom cmtu..

mmber dtg uma..mk sdare pun ade..sepupu semuala..

tp beshh gak..dpt lepak ngn membe2..

nk kuar uma pun panas memanjang..ptg lak asyk ujan je..

rayer ke -4..

adik ak da kna ballik perak..praktikal..

seronok dgr die cerita pasal life kt hospital..

cane nk handle pt mcm2 penyakit n life docs kt cne..

sampai tokwan ak pun yg tkot nk msuk hosp 26hb da de cnfident..

hahaha..

rayer ke-5..

ak x study harini..

coz seharian duk berjalan je..

pg2 lg tokwan dtg uma n kjutkn ak suh mndi..

tanyer nk g ane..die ckp nk ajak p umah sedare kt chalok barat..

ak pun follow jela..

sampai ke petang duk sne..

tmbah lak ngn jalan jem..urgghh paling ak x suke!!..

mse balik,parents ak nk g hospital trg tgk jiran ak yg sakit..

ak ngn adik kcik 2 org g lepak kt kfc..hoho..

rmai gler org..

aritu jgak ak taw yg membe skolah rendah dlu kawen!!

terkejut sakan ak..

umo bru 20 tue..mude lagi~~~

ble dgr pendapat abah,brula pham..

ak?? huhh..lg 10 taun kot..calon pun xde lg..hehe

rayer ke-6..

da tbe ms adik2 ak balik skolah..

tggal ak sorg kat uma..mlm ni balik ar..hehe

senyap plak la uma ak..

nk tggu berkumpul cmni bkna senang..

huhuhuhu...

ble nk balik kl ni..

susah je ati ak..

bukan pe..

kala balik..keje bertimbun2..

study.study.study.study.study x abes2..

tp nak  wat cane..

mmg 5 taun keje ak camtu je..

redha jelaa.. tp dwt rayer taun ni bayak gak dpt banding ngan taun2 lepas..

haha..ak pose pnuh kot taun ni.. ;p

kepada kwn2 ak yg x sempat nk jumpe tu..

selamat hari rayer..

maaf zahir batin..

except one..he's ruined my whole life..

:: taylor swift _ fearless ::

 :: lurve story :: ....

i miss damn muchh diz moment

 truely..

but i can't tell him...

mybe..

forever..

becoz..

impossible...

he's not one for me..

huhu

^_^

:: undefined feeling ::

S.E.B.A.L  S.E.B.A.L  S.E.B.A.L...
huhuhu..
tinggal sorg je kt rumah..
yg lain semua balik rayer..
x beshh langsung..
nk nangis rase..tp xde sape yg dengar..
bwt penat je..
huhuhuhu..

nak balik..nk balik..nk balik rumah mlm ni..
xnk da tggu esok..
lambat..
huhuhu..

ade die pun x sporting langsung!
x.suke! x.suke! x.suke!.. :(
m.a.r.a.h  g.e.r.a.m  x.p.u.a.s.a.t.i  s.e.d.i.h  b.e.n.g.a.n.g  semua ade..huhu
no one could understand me!
t.e.n.s.i.o.n nyer..
xde mood nk berayer dah..
xde mood nk study jgak!

:: yeppy!! ::

alhamdullilah..
hehe..seronok sgt..
coz xm cpr passed..xyah da repeat ke re-test ke re-sit ke..sewaktu dengan nyer la..
lepas stu dugaan..hehe..
lepas ni fokus summative ngan EOS je..
kala ley ak nk bwt gempak result xm kali ni.. *mesti*
hehe..semua pilihan ak..nk xnk je..
so ak kna study kuat sket larhh kn kalo nk result xm gempak.. :)
berkorban sket je..lepas xm boleh ak rehat puas2 kt umah..
3 bulan ct..hohoho..
x sabar rasenyer..
hihi..
chaiyok2 farahin!! ;p

arini ade stu lec je..tp x beshhnyer mms lewat ptg la plak..
so decide balik uma,bwt pbl n revise ape2 yg patut..
coz sabtu ni dah nk balik rayer da..
hoorayy!! hehe..
taun ni nk beraye ngan sepupu,sedara semua..
kwn2 dr sek rendah sampai la menengah..kolej??hmm kala dorg still ade kt m'sia la..
hehe..

have a nice day  ^_^

:: 20 years oledei ::

20 years tu my age..hehe..
just nk muhasabah diri sendiri..
tp kala sape2 terbace blog ni..bguslah..
ley kongsi pengalaman hidup ngan korang.. :)

dr umo setahun jagung sampai skunk (remaje heheh)
da banyak belajar dr pengalaman sendiri..
dr kecik walaupun ank sulung, my mum & dad selalu risaukan ak lebih dr adik2 yg laen..
rmai org ble tgk ak ckp ak ni ank bongsu..no larhh..

dr darjah 1 my mum da aimed ak untuk belajar btul2 n dapat result cemerlang..
ak x stress sbb tu yg ak nk dalam hidup..ms umur 4 taun my mum da aimed ak nk jd doc..
abah x ckp pe..sbb die taw tu yg terbaik untuk ak..n ak pun x protes..sbb tu yg ak nk..
oleh sbb my mum tu cg kt skolah ak dlu, jd disiplin ak ni bgus gak la..haha..
lepas dpt rezuk upsr..ak jd role model untuk adk2 ak..hasilnya semua dapat 5A..
alhamdullilah..

lepas upsr, ak dpt tawaran masuk SESMA..
mula2 sedeh la jgak coz semua my frens dpt sbp hebat2.. MCKK, SDAR, STF, TKC..
tp xpe..SESMA pun ok perghh..hehe..cg2 kt skolah tu semua dedikasi..hehe
lgpun blaja kt mane2 pun same..quality bkn skolah but kt dri kite sendiri !!
windu lak kt SESMA..t ak da berjaya,nk gak balik skolah tu jumpe cg2 kesayangn ak..hehe xyah mention name la..

kehidupan ak kt SESMA selama 5 taun tu banyak gak ar dugaan nyer..
xyah cite ar..ak dr bdaq pendiam dlu jd daq periang, pandai usik org..tp tetap baik..haha..
ramai kwn ak knal..ade yg baik..musuh dalam selimut pun ade..
tu lah rencah kehidupan kn..
ms ak F2..first tyme dpt kad bufday dr kwn lame ..igtkan dah lupe..gembira sgt2 tyme tu..haha..
F3..mmg banyak dugaan..study gile2..n paling buat semangat ak runtuh tyme tu ble adik ak meninggal..
xde semangat nk study & balik skolah..tp my mum yang banyak bg support + advice kt ak..
akhirnya ak dpt jgak result pmr cemerlang tyme tu..adk2 ak da kna cabar ngan abah untuk dpt rezuk lg baik dr ak..hasilnya semua adik2 follow ak..8A..kcian dorg..

form 4 & 5 jalan hidup ak kt SESMA berliku2..banyak dugaan..
10 subjek..bwt ak gle..lg2 addmath..fuhh..malu nk tgk result..trookk!!
tambah lg dgn hal yg gle2 yg x pernah ak pk sebelum ni..
ble da jd cmtu..ak cr helah nk protect dri sendiri..hehe..menjadi jgak..dapat gak fokus study betul2..
walaupun rezuk xm x berapa gempak,alhamdullah rezuk spm ak melayakkan ak dpt tajaan jpa bwt medic..
my target tercapai!! ak rase ak lah org yg paling bahagia dalam dunia ni..
my mum n dad sgt gembira..ak puas dpt tunaikan harapan mereka walaupun ni bru permulaan bg ak..
form 5..tersangatlah tersiksa..kelas siang malam.. n selalu terkena dgn cg fizik..hehe..
ak x brp minat dgn subjek ni jd kurang bg komitment la..
tp sgt la rindu kt kwn2 ak kelas 5UA dlu..harap2 dpt jump korang suatu hari 6t.. mishh u all..

 :: my best friends forever.. <3 tertinggal lg 2 org..hehe ::

:: da tunaikan permintaan kwn baik ak..hehe.. ngat! u r in d photo :) ::

lepas spm..bwt a-level kat KTT..
mula2 rase cm xley nk teruskan sbb rase cm ak x mampu bwt..
mujurla ak 2 org kwn baik ak bwt program ni same2 kt ktt.. farah & lijek..kiteorg satu kelas ms kt sesma n rancang nk amik medic [ cite2 ms form 5 ] hehe..walaupun lain2 negara,kiteorg still support each other untuk terus berjaya..

ms ni jgak bnyak dugaan yg ak kna hadapi..
tp mujur la ak x terpesong jauh..
thanks 4 ur advice..
ak muhasabah diri ak n fokuskan matlamat ak..
kwn serumah ak..ima, muni & zu yang banyak dgr masalah ak n bg support tym ak down..
thanks korang..
ms tggal 3 bulan..n ak tungkus lumus revise bio + chem + phys yg paling ssh ak nk terima coz x minat dr skolah men lagi..nk bwt cmne pakse gak semata2 untuk lpas point..
exm ni paling susah2 giler bg ak.. tp bkn nasib ak..

 :: my ex-classmate all & alu 16 ^_^ wish u all luck!! ::

tp alhamdullilah..dpt jgak ak bwt medic kat IMU..
bkn calang2 univer bg ak..
banyak dugaan kt cni..nk2 course die..teramatlah tersiksa..
so..dah lbih kurang 3 taun hidup berdikari kt kl..
banyak da ak belajar erti hidup & da bleh nilai seseorg tu cmne.. (psyco lak..hehe)
boys ..?? only wasting my time..go ahead!!
tp btul..bulan pose ni banyak bg hikmah kat ak..
fokus ak success in my study, my career n my family..
nothing more important than dis..
lepas korang dpt semua ni, nk njoy lebih2 xpela..hehee
bf, gf means NOTHING..
so dun't waste ur time, energy , money.. n HURT urself..!! haha.. (it's true)
be & tc of urself..be independent..

 :: be strong - hearted n u will success !! ::

hav nice day ^_^

:: she's d best in d world ::

ibu melahirkan kite sambil menangis kesakitan..
namun, masihkah kite ingin menyakitinya..?!
masih mampukah kita tertawa melihat penderitaan nya..?!
memakinya..?!
melawannya..?!
memukulnya..?!
sedarilah bahawa dalam dunia ni xde seorg pun yg sanggup mati demi ibu tp seorg ibu sanggup mati demi anaknya..

n seorg ibu tidak mengharapkan hadiah yg besar @ wang + harta dr anaknya..tapi hanya sebuah kejayaan dan menjadi anak yang baik kepada mereka [ my mum said ]

s.a.y.a.s.a.y.a.n.g.k.e.l.u.a.r.g.a.s.a.y.a [a.b.a.h.m.a.a.n.i.m.a.c.i.k.a.y.u.b.a.n.g.l.i.d.i.k.n.a] x lupe jgak kt b.a.n.g.f.i.k.r.i semoga bahagia kt sane ~ Al - Fatihah **

 :: we lurve our mum soooo muchh!! she's d best mum in d world ::

 :: terima kasih atas segala pengorbanan ma untuk family ::

 :: kpd ma, thanks sbb selalu bg semangat untuk kiteorg trus berjaya ::

 :: hehe.. ni adik kesayangan..gudluck 4 ur exm, i would't break my promise ::

 :: untuk abah, walaupun xbrp rapat along ttp sayangkn abah walaupun abah x pnh tahu ::

 :: kiteorg ade misi tsendri 5 taun akn dtg.. :) insya Allah  ::

:: seronok ::

semalam after kelas pg shah alam..
ape lg..shopping raye la..
hehe..
msuk je compleks pkns..fuhh..
banyak giler bju cantek2..harga pun chantek..hehe
2 jam gak la dlm tu..dapat jgak bju raye..
asalnyer xnk beli coz balik pun da pg raye..
xde maknenyer..
cantekk..nk tgk pic dier..??
ishh xle la..tggu raye ekk..hehe

pastu msuk mydin..x cr barang pun kt cni..
jam da 6.30.. cr tempt berbuka dpn ole2..
hehe..mknan mamak seyh..
walaupun x berape suke..redha jela..
haha..
tyme balik..jalan jem..sampai uma 9lebey kot..
trus solat,mandi n prepare xm sok hari..
tgk video pro-cpr sampai la ttdo..
bgun2 je laptop kat tepi tgk jam kul 5..
pe lg..bgun sahur la..sambung tdo balik..
hehe *penat*

pg imu kul 9..trus dgr briefing..
sejukk + ngantuk lupe bawak sweater..
ttbe rase seronok + excited ble tgk patung kt depan..no stress!! ;p
nk2 bayi puteh + itam..hehe..

abis je briefing kteorg praktis dlu..

hehe..cm2 gaye ade..

tp beshh.. fun!! :D

lepas tu start xm..

okla..my case simple je..

hopefully pass.. :)

now nk pg mask sementara tggu my sister sampai kl..

then nk pg bazaar.. yeppy!! :)

hav a nice day ^_^

:: the climb ::

hehe..
ske gilerr ak nyer csu session arini..
hehe that what i want..learning but fun, rileks not scary one..
yg lg untung hari ni..
we all dpat nice advice from him..that no bad rite..
he says :

• when i'm a medical student, only 5 hours for sleep , 3 hours for eat & bath n another 16 hours reading books..
• always say that u r the intelligent student if not, u r not here in front of me..
• always practice and learning n u will becoming a good student
• be smart , hardworking , n always learn then u will go far --  become excellent student and make ur dream become true 

i will follow his advice.. ^_^
very lucky i meet him..
at least ak dpt support alang2 semangat ak da nk runtuh ble banyak sgt kna study neyh..
btul lah org ckp..bulan pose ni banyak hikmahnyer..
Dr. Htin..memang bestt!! i like the way he teach us..!! FUN!!
walaupun mula2 ak cuak jgak coz worried dpt dr yg lagi satu..
hehe..
csu yang ak rase lama sebelum ni * 4.30-6.30* tp hari ni cm sekejap gler..

walaupun penat coz kelas pagi2 buta kul 8 da PBL..
mmg senyap ar ms discussion td..mengantuk pun blum ilang lg..huhu
sambung lak ngan 2 lec.. 10.30-12.45..
tp yg sedehnyer..
apela nk jadi yg mase depan pharmaco ak...
semua lec die setengah jalan je ak tahan..yg selebihnya tdow..
huhu..
sape yg amik pharmaco tu..tolong2 la ajar ak..
huhuhu...
sedeyh gler ni..

bru td ciapkan air topic..
akhirnyer dpt gak rase lega..xyah nk risau2 lg..
da submit..hehe..
malam ni kna habiskan CVS..
esok pg 8.30 ade study group..
thanks kwn2 for d study group..
at least ak pkse gak dri ak blaja..
dr melaghakn diri depan facebook..
haha...
n lepas habiskan CVS..fokus cpr xm weekend ni for practical la.. *tgk video pro-cpr n bace bku lg!!*
arap2 passed la.. =)

chaiyok2!! ^_*

:: azam baru ::

arini bgun tdow je ak dgn azam baru..
chaiyok2!! hahaha..
mane dpt semangat ni ntahla...
kul 8.30 ak dah ade kt library imu..
bwt revision sampai 10.30..
lect epidemiology.. lawak giler..ak asyk gelak je ngn prof.Yadav tu..
lect patho..da mcm dlm panggung wyg..dgr je citer dier sampai ak pun xsdr ble ley tertido..
hikhikhik...

abis lecture 12.30 ak pg library balik..smbung bwt revision..
lepas solat..msuk csu..hoho..
ape ntah name equipment tu.. sphyrognomanometer..??!!??
btol la tu kot..
BP ak..rendah giler..patutlaa..
tp mmg tahap normal ak cmtu kot.. *bkn atlet* haha

abes je..ak pg library balik..haha..sampai ar kul 5..
balik uma smyg n turun dapur..
hehe..
menu arini --> kari daging , sayur campur , ayam goreng..
hahaha mcm kt umah lak..
sejam kot duk dapur..

lepas berbuka..
ak smbung study balik yg petang td x abis lg..
ak harap 2 tjuk F1 ley abis esk.. * respi & urinary*
harap2 la..coz ak btul2 cuak daa.. huhu..
immuno da semakin bertambah tebal ak nyer lec notes yg blum revise..
hoho..mati ler..
papepun.. chaiyok farahin!! hehe :p

:: tired of being sorry ::

yg da lepas, lepas laa..
jgn la kacau lg..xggu dier pun mjur..
buang semua kenangan dlu tue..
xyah ungkapkan perkataan " sorry "
coz i hate diz word damn much after what u did 2 me

maybe you were right..

but baby i was lonely..

i don't want to fight..

tired of being sorry...

i standing on the street yeahh..

crying enough for you..

no one sees me...

under silver moon.. ^_^ 

<3 diz lyrics *_^

my dreaming guy.. :: Erique ::
*ni blog ak nyer kn, ske ati la nk tulis pe ;p *
hahaha.. ;p
lurve his style.. :)

:: i'm takin' back my love ::

Go ahead just leave, can’t hold you, you’re free

You take all these things, if they mean so much to you

I gave you your dreams, ’cause you meant the world

So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

You think I don’t know you’re out of control

I ended up finding all of this from my boys

Girl, you’re stone cold, you say it ain’t so

You already know I’m not attached to material

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love

I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love, my love

My love

Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?

I’m just confused as I stand here and look at you

From head to feet, all that’s not me

Go ‘head, keep the keys, that’s not what I need from you

You think that you know

(I do)

You’ve made yourself cold

(Oh yeah)

How could you believe them over me, I’m your girl

You’re out of control

(So what?)

How could you let go?

(Oh yeah)

Don’t you know I’m not attached to material?

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love

I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love, my love

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love

I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love, my love

So all this love I give you, take it away

(Uh, uh huh)

You think material’s the reason I came

(Uh, uh huh)

If I had nothing would you want me to stay

(Uh, uh huh)

You keep your money, take it all away

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love

I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love

I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love

I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love

I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love

(I’m taking back my love)

Ooh, my love

^_^

:: da.nak.masuk.mggu.ke 7::

haishhh.!! kala pk2 cuak giler nih..huhu
anat & physio + biochem + statistic + behav.sciences + patho + microb + parasite + immuno + pharmaco + community medic = dlm ms lbih kurg sebulan CUKUP KER..???!!
*tp kalo pk,SPM bley nape course ni ak x ley bwt kn*
tggal bbrp week lg lec n trus summative..
cm nk gugur jantung biler tgk banyak lg topic yg x bace nih..
tu blum masuk EOS lg..
aiyooo..mati ler..kalo cani la ct rayer pun kna study..

AIR TOPIC...ni pun nk kna ciapkan sblm balik rayer..
lg yg bwt ak bengang, bru tersedar tiket balik rayer 19hb malam!!
huhuu..xnak rayer ah taun ni kala cmni..
xsempat nk bwt sekut rayer ngan ma...  :(
papepun, study ak lg penting kot..!!

never mind lah..yg pnting ak prepare ntuk xm EOS 6t..
chaiyok2!!
paling kurang dapat lepas EOS pun jadi larhh..
AMINN.. ^_^

::hari.paling.sibok::

"krrriingggg"...bru kul 5..
tdow balik bgun kul 5.30..huaahh ngantuk giler!!
trun bwah tgk zu da ciap masak..
thanks zu!! kala nk tggu ak mmg xsempat la..
abis sahur terus slt subuh malas nk sambung tdo tkot terlepas..

pastu pe lg,oleh sbb ak de xm pakse gak ar tgk bku..
xsdar ble ttdo..*bku lak yg tgk ak*
erk! klas kul 10.30..da lambat..
bgun.gsk bju.mandi.ciap2.amik bku.n turun pg kuliah.

lecture 1 -- ngantuk giler!! lecture 2 -- xtaw lecturer 2 ckp pe..huhu 60% je  kot ley pham
replacement immune skip sbb nk g m.jamek..haha *bln pose lak tu*
xpe..sekali ni jerk..
best giler! jalan2 kt m.jamek
borong abis!! * jam,selendang,baju*
nk usher sekut rayer xsempat coz tyme 2 kul 5..!!
ader xm kul 6..mmg gler..

trus balik sampai imu kul 5.50..
abes xm kul 7.15..kuar imu je da bkak pose..
tpkse ar beli kt bawah.. ):
pas mkn,mandi bsh bju ,facebooking *hehe*,tdow..
ngntuk ++ penat siott !!
nite~~