:: drama kehidupan check it out! B-) ::

if u luv sum1 becoz u think dats he is really georgeous..

then it's not love..

if u luv sum1 becoz u shouldn't leave him becoz other think dat you shouldn't.

it's not love..it's compromise..

if u love sum1 becoz u think dats u cannot live without his touch..

then it's not love..it's lust..

if u love sum1 becoz u have been kissed by him..

then it's not love..it's inferiority complex..

if u love sum1 becoz u cannot leave him thinkin' dats it would hurt his feelin'

it's not love..it's charity..

if u love sum1 becoz u've share every single moments wif him..

then it's not love..its friendship..

BUT..

if u feel d pain of d other person more than him even he is unstable..

u're for him..dats love..

if u get attracted 2 d people but u still stay wif him without any regret..

dats love..

if u let him go knowing dat he has 2 go but he doesn't want to..

dats love..

guys may flirting around all d day..but before they go to sleep, they always think bout d gurl they truly care about..
guys are more emotional than u think, if they loved u at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then u think to let u go and it hurts every second dats day try..
guys go crazy over a girl's smile..
a guy who like u wants to be d only guy u talk to..

giving a guy a hanging message like
" u know what?..uh..nevermind "
would make him jump to a conclusion dats is far from wut are u thinkin'
and he'll assume he did sumthin' wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure out..
if a guy tells u about his problems..he just needs sum1 to listen to him..
u don't need to give advice..
a usual act dats proves dats d guy likes u when he teases u..
guys love u more than u love them..

guys u words like hot or cute 2 describe gurls..
they rarely use beautiful or gorgeous..
if a guy uses dats, he love u or likes u a whole heck of a lot..

if d guy do sumthin' stupid in front of  d gurl..
he will think bout it 4 d next couple days or until d next time he spends time wif a gurl..
if a guy looks unusually calm n laid back, he probably faking it and he is really thinkin' bout sumthin'

when a guy says he is going crazy bout d gurl..
he really is..
guys rarely say dats..

when a guy ask u to leave him alone, he just actually saying
"please come and listen to me"
if a guys start to talk seriously..
listen to him..
it's doesn't happen dats often, so when it's  does u know sumthin's up..
when a guy look at u for longer than a second, he definitely thinkin' somethin'...
guys really think dats gurl are strange and have unpredictable decision and are mad confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them..

a guy would give d world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day
no guy can handle all his problem on his own..
he's just too stubborn to admit it..

not all guys are rude
just becoz one rude
doesn't mean he represent all of them....
when a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to talk to u..
he really like u and wants to be wif u as much as possible..

even if u dump a guy montths ago and he loved u..
he probably still does and if he had one wish

it would be u to come back into his life...
-_-

:: hobi ak..ngee~ GIRLS GENERATION ::

::  gee - snsd ::

:: perfect for you ::

:: etude ::

:: genie ::

:: honey ::

:: lurve story ::

we were both young when i first saw u..

i close my eyes and d flashback starts

i'm standing there..

on a balcony of summer air..

see d light

see d party
 d ball gowns..

i see u make ur way through the crowd..

you say "hello"

little did i knoe..

dat u were romeo..

u were throwing pebbles..

and my daddy said  "stay away from juliet"

and i was crying on d staircase..

begging u please don't go..

and i said..

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone..

i'll be waiting all theres left to do is run..

u'll be d prince and i'll be d princess..

its a love story baby juz say yess!!

so i sneak out to d garden to c u..

we keep quiet becoz we're dead if they knew 

so close ur eyes

lets keep dis down for little awhile..

cause u were romeo i was d scarlet letter..

and my daddy said stay away from juliet..

but u were everythin' to me..

and i was begging to u please don't go

and i said romeo take me sumwhere we can be alone..

i'll be waiting all there left to do is run..

u'll be d prince n i'll be d princess..

it's a love story baby juz say yess!!

romeo save me..

they try to tell me how to feel..

dis love is difficult..

but it's real..

don't be afraid..

we'll make it out of dis mess..

it's a love story baby juz say yess!!

i got tired of waiting..

wondering if u'd ever come around..

my faith in u is fading..

when i met u on d outskirts of town

and i said..

romeo save me..

i've been feeling so alone

i keep waiting for u but u never come..

is dis in my head..

i dun knoe wut to think..

he knelt to d ground..

and pulled out a ring..

and he said..

marry me juliet..

u'll never have to be alone..

i love u and dats all u know..

i talked to ur dad..

and u'll go pick a white dress..

it's a love story..

baby juz say yesss

we were both young when i first saw u...

:: change~ ::

and its a sad picture..

d final blow hits u..

sumbody else get wut they wanted again and..

u knoe its all d same..

another time and places ..

repeating history and u get sick of it..

but i believe in wuteva u do..

and i do anything to c it through..

becoz dis thing will change..

can u feel it now..

dis wall dat they up to hold us back will fall down..

its revolution..

d time will come for us to finally win..

we sing hallalujah...

so we been outnumbered..

raided and now cornered..

it hard to fight when d fight unfair..

we getting stronger now..

found things they never found..

they might be bigger..

but we faster and never scared..

u can walk away sa we no need dis..

but sumthin in your eyes says we can bet dis..

dis thing will change..

can u feel it now..

dis wall dat they put up to hold us back will fall down..

its revolution..

d time will come for us to finally win..

we sing hallalujah...

we sing hallalujah~~....

tonite we stand without our knees..

find for wut we worked for all dis years..

and d battle was long..

and the fight overlast..

and we stand there

champions tonite..

 the was nite things change..

can u feel it now..

dis wall dat they put up to hold us back will fell down..

its revolution..

drag ur hands up..

coz we never gave in

we sing hallalujah..

we sang hallalujah..

hallalujah

< '_' >

:: unknown feeling ::

keliru..serabut.serabai...bosann....sepi......undefined....
masih mencari dri ak yg sebenar..
mane ilang..ntahla..
hurmm..

ct sem da nk abes..
lepas ni xley da nk lepak2 lg cm skrang..
xsempt nk rse bosan pom 6t..
huhu..

taun depan...2010...
mgkin untuk ak mulakan kehidupan bru..lupakn sengketa lama,kenangan yg byk mkn dri ak sndri..n jd dri ak yg sebenar.. N.U.R.F.A.R.A.H.I.N...
umur ak pun akan tergelincir 1 taun..
mknenya..21taun..ahhaha..
ak sepatutnya da jd lebih mature..
bknnya kebudak-budakan lg..
pkran ak patut lebih rasional..haha..ni ape yg ak harapkn dpt berubah
21...hmmm..da tua dah ak ni..
xpatut jd bolok2,xterurus..haha..

azam ak taun depan..
mmm..nk luangkn byk mse dgn family ak..
fokuskan pada study..biar lg gempak result yg kuar 6t..ahhaha..
berkawan biar seribu..bercinta tu lum sedia lg..ahhaha..biar parents ak sndri yg pilih..
ak xkesah..da kwn dgn org ni,tu salah..biar die cr sndri..ahhaha..
nk sgt bkal doc..mne ak nk cri..ak taw knp pilihn dorg cmtu..
supya dpt jg ak yg kdg2 gle2 sket..ssh nk jg ak sebnrnya..haha..
tp x smestinya doc kn..
penin kpale dorg jga ak sorg tp dorg xkesah sbb ak slalu bg ape dorg nk..dpt rezuk yg okla  ntuk cita2 ak..haha

n ak harap taun dpn adalah taun yg paling bernsib baik ntuk ak.. AMINN..
n ntuk bestfren ak..xkire la laki ke ppn..
korg d best..thanks dgr probs n bg nsihat kt ak..
iA..ak akn jd org yg berguna..lum terlewat ntuk ak mulakan semua ni..
ak bersyukur samp arini ak msih dberi pluang ntuk betulkan ape yg ak da bwt salah slma ni..

haha..yg pentg ak xkn post da crita ak yg sengal2 dalam blog ak ni..
smua tu mainan idup yg ak xtau mne penghujungnya..
yg ak xpasti ape akn terjd mse depan..
so xnk la ak pening2 kpale lg..
idup ni kna COOLL wlpn de msalah..always calm..
tu prinsip ak..
sampai cni jela blog ak kali ni..hehehe..
choww~ hav nice day.. ;-)

:: if heart can talk ::

.....it will be better..

yeahh!!

huhu..

so many things dats can't tell..

;(

hopefully one day, my heart can talk..

talk..talk..talk..and talk..

tell all d truth..

wut i'm feels, wut d reasons n Y i'd done all dats things

dats someones want 2 know from me...

so dats i no need to keep all dis things anymore..

which sometimes hurt me..

bcoz i'm tired already..

of not being myself..!!

hukhuk...

i want 2 be myself...

like in f3..

i'm free..can be friend wif anyone..seorg yg ske habiskn mse untuk study..study n study..x sakiti hati org lain..,periang, xmudah sensitif..

miss all my best friends..farah,lijex,saba,sanj,aina,milin,nadia,emie,linda,scholastica..huhu..

all wind orhkestra n pancaragam members.. sanj,deibs,alia,tie,eela,haniey,suha,aina...n all juniors..

kwn2 ak kls 5UA.. d best memory in SESMA...

n xlupa jga pd dorm mate ak..MERAH 2.. saba, t-rex, gmah and all juniors..

hasmira di UTP knalan mse educamp petronas..sikap yg sgt bertentangan dgn ak..(:..miss dats moment..

membe2 tangga 4 di KTT especially apartmen ak.. ima n zu di india n muni di mesir (:..

miss u all damn much!!

if ak dpt peluang kedua..

ak nk kembali ke zman skolah dlu..

n betulkan ape yg ak dah byk bwt salah skrg ni..

ak skrg...

jiwa sgt kosong..

dgn sape2 ak x bhgia..

ble jumpe die yg dpt bkak ati ak kali ke-2..igtkn dpt luangkn mse dgn die..

but i was wrong..

seem like he doesn't like..

i can't stand anymore..mybe he's not serious..

i dun know..

i hope one day, ak akan jumpa sum1 yg dpt bg ak kebahagiaan..

yg dpt sayang ak sepenuhnya..n paling ak harap..

yg seswai dgn jiwa ak..

yg bleh bkak ati ak ntuk terima die..

then i will be d one for him..

t8 care of him n love him wif all of my heart

no more playgurl....

hopefully my wish come true..

i dun want to be hurt anymore..

tired olidei..

juz trima wut happen next..

but ak bersyukur..

msih ade kwn2 yg dpt bwt ak gembira..

yg dpt lepak2 dgn dorg..dgr masalah ak..n bwt gile2..

korang sgt sporting..

syang korang sgt2..muahahaha!!

ak da xnk trus  konfius,sedeh2..

mulai esok ak nk mulakan hidup bru..

juz enjoy my life wif wut i have..

dun want to think bout something dats can hurt me anymore..

juz wanna be myself..

yg periang..open-minded n x emo lg..

p/s : k la..da tyme ak tdow..esok kna msuk clinic.. (:

HAVE A NICE DAY..

:: waitin' ::

waiting..waiting...and still waiting..

i dun care..

waiting 4 what i want..

although its hurt..

sorry..

i can't forget..

mybe forever..

or till i find d one like him..

D 1 LIKE HIM  MYBE..

:: apple ::

:: VALY - Yank ::

p/s : beshh gileerr lgu neyh.. ((:

yank, coba kau jujur padaku..

yank, photo siapa di dompetmu..

yank, kok kamu diam begitu..

sayank, jawab atau aku pergi sayank..

aku tak mau bicara sebelum kau cerita semua..

apa mau mu, siapa dirinya, tak betah bila ada yg lain..

jangan hubungi aku lagi,ini bisa jadi yang terakhir..

aku ngerti kamu, kau tak ngerti aku..

sekarang atau tak selamanya..

yank, jangan kira ku tak tahu..

yank, tak mudah kau bodohiku..

yank, tolong dengarkan lah aku..

tapi sayank, masih pantaskah kau aku panggil sayank..

"-_-"

:: ape yg ak rase... ::

adess!!!
post ak kali ni agak SENGAL!!~
ak harap xde org bce post ak yg ni..hahahahah

tp nk luah skitla..
ape sebenarnye mksud kala dah 3 taun kte cube lupakan die..msih x boleh jgak??!
3taun tu dah kire satu jangka mse yg lama..
mgkin die satu-satunya best bf yg ak ade..
ape yg ak rase..mcm semalam ak knal ngn die,gumbire dgn die..
padahal ak dah lame x jumpe die..ak benci diri die skrg..
egois, playboy n mcm la dri die perfect sgt! urghh!!
kebelakangan ni ak asyik teringt kt die..mkin nk lupa mkin ak teringat..
BODOH nya rase..huhuhuhu...
ape kna ngan ak ni..

kdg2 ak slalu gak bertanyer..
ya tuhan..kalau die bkn jodohku..knp x hilangkan die dr pkranku,ingatanku..
knp x biarkan ak gembira dgn org yg ak ade skrg..
yg syg ak lebih dr die syg ak..
kdg2 ak rase bersalah..
bile ngn org len..ak teringt kt 3taun ak xley lupe tu..
cmne ak nk berterus terang ngn die sedangkan hati ak pun xboleh lupakan die yg 3taun tu..

lagi ak dduk kt kg ni..lg ak teringt kt 3taun tu..
n faham2la..ngn die skrg ak slalu gado..die dduk barat ak duk timur..lg la berantam tiap2 ari..
smua ak nyer pasal la..tp die ttp sabar dgn ak..

tyme ak nk xm..lg truk die kna sbar ngn ak..
yela..tyme2 xm ni ak mls nk cmpr hal peribadi ngn study..
so dlm sebuln lebih jgak la ak xlyn die..
bkn nyer ak crg ngn die..tp ak kna fokuskn pd pelajaran ak..
tp die ttp sbr..PELIK ak..kalo org len da lme gado2 ngn ak then BLAAHH cmtu jea..

ak xtaw knp die sygkan ak sgt..
sdgkn ak bese2 je..banyak lg ppn lain yg die boleh dpt..
ak pernah uji die suh usha ppn lain..ape yg ak dpt..kna marah balik la..DIAM jela..

ak xdpt lupakan kisah lalu mgkin sbb ak blum jumpe yg btul2 seswai dgn jiwa ak..
kwn2 baik ak taw taste ak mcm mane..
tp ape nk bwt..
kbanyakan org yg ak knal..yg nakal2..
lepas knal ak..berubah jd baik..
bkn ak x suke..
tp..taste ak..lain dr org lain..
ntahla..
bingung..
malas ak nk pk..
juz ak xtau ape kna ngan ak..
" yg syg kt ak ade dpn mata..tp ak xnmpak..
ak xnk 6t dah hilang bru nk menghargai nya"..
-->  nasihat kengkawan yg slalu ak dpt..

kala ade pun..ak xknal..hahaha of course la!
kala ade pun..yg org.. mls beb!
kala ade pun.. ak plak yg bwt hal!

BUT NOTHING PERFECT!!
fuhhhh!!

:: alhamdulillah :) ::

hmm.. (: akhirnya tergerak gak ati nk menulis kt blog ni..hehe
selepas sebulan lebih tungkus lumus study..study...n study..
akhirnya usaha ak slama ni tak sia2..
ak berjaya mengharungi tahun pertama untuk bidang medic ak..
ALHAMDULLILAH...syukur..
walaupun selepas exam,seminggu ak jd x tentu pikirkan result..
tp berbaloi jugak..huhu~
insya Allah..tahun depan ak akan memulakan pengajian untuk tahun kedua pula..
ak akan lebih berusaha bersungguh-sungguh untuk mencapai cita-cita ak..

bila pk2..ak lebih suka meluangkan masa untuk belajar..belajar2..
x macam dlu..
ak lebih banyak membazir masa untuk bermain2..hehe
sem 2 banyak bg pengajaran kt ak..
ak jadi lebih minat untuk study,xmain2 lg dgn bende2 yg berfaedah n jadi lebih baik berbanding dlu..
n ak nk ucapkan terima kasih kepada study gp members ak..
asyraf n zu..
korang da banyak membantu ak untuk exam EOS ni..
walaupun kadang2 kiteorg down,rase give up..but kita bleh harungi ni bersama2..

thanks korang..
ak xkn lupa saat2 nk exam dlu..
study gp sampai malam..bgun awal pg..tdo lewat malam..
tdo pulak xpenah lena..mkn x menentu..lain la ak..hahah..
semakin stress semakin kuat mkn..
sampai la cg sek rendah ak ckp ak da semakin berisi..hahah..

selepas exam aritu..ak dan kawan2 rancang nk kuar..lepas tension..
seoul garden,one utama..mines..alamanda.. then jalan2 kt putrajaya..
besh!! seharian kiteorg keluar..
tp yg frustnya..semua tiket 2012 dah abes dijual..
kteorg balik ke vista lebih kurg kul 11lebih mlm..

14hb nov..ak pulang ke trg..kg halaman ak..
tenang kt cni..
ct ni banyak plan yg ak nk buat..
hehe..ct 2 bulan..
agak lame..
so xkan nk terperap kt uma je kn..borinkk la..
hehe..

first thing mestila nk jump kawan2 ak..da lama xjump.gosip2 ngn dorang..haha
nadia,aimi,linda,suria,saba,aina,..ramai lg la..
kala nk sebut semua xmuat ni..hehe
mula2 ak nk keje kt klinik shukor..
timba2 ilmu sket kt sane..hehe
then plan nk amik lesen la plak..
sebelum2 ni xda kesempatan nk bwt,jd ct ni xde alasan la kn..
sem dpn ak kna pandai2 drive sendri la plak ntuk ke spital..
xkn nk harapkan abah lg jd driver ak..
then ct ni walaupun da lulus tahun pertama, ak nk revise semua benda yg ak da blaja untuk satu taun ni..
blaja ak nk betulkan niat start arini..
bukan kerana exam, tp kerana Allah..
yg paling penting sekali..nk ubah cara hidup ak..huhu

ak nekad nk jadi gud gurl, jd lebih solehah kt parents n atuk ak..
dan lupakan semua perkara2 yg x gembira mse lampau..
ak da xnk igt..
kdg2 menyakitkan hati..
dorg pun da trima balasan dgn ape yg dorg bwt kt ak selama ni..
bukan ak yg mintak..tp Allah lebih mengetahui ape yg ak rase..
Dia da banyak tolong ak,dan beri petunjuk kt ak..
ak harap pun korang akan dpt hidayah drpd Dia n hidup korg lebih teratur mase depan..

yg  paling penting..ak da xnk gado2 ngn die lg..
lepas ape yg berlaku,ak da sedar..
mgkin die yg terbaik untuk ak..
walaupun kdg2 ak badmood ngn die,xhiraukn die..
tp die ttp syangkan ak..amik berat pasal ak..
xkira ak sakit atau x..die slalu ade ngn ak..
die kawan baik ak, musuh ketat ak, n juga...bla3... (:
walaupun kdg2 die cbuk dgn assigmnet die..tp ttp ade mse ntuk ak..
akn akn cuba jd mcm die..

ni jela cite ak setakat ni..
nk cerita panjang da xley coz ak kna kmas uma plak..hehe
biasela..
anak sulong..knala rajen sket..hehe..

ntuk adik ak, FIQ gudlurk ur spm! u can do it..
ntuk adk ak jgak, HANIM congrats 4 ur result --> 4.0
n tu ak sendri..syukur alhamdullilah coz passed 1year medic~ "-_-"

HAVE NICE DAY (:

:: speeding~~ ::

da lame x update blog ni..
lepas raye..start kelas..sgt busy..
nk cover smua topic sem 2..
luar nmpk cool tp dalam..masya Allh..mati ak!
hukhukhuk..
bln ni sgt stress ntuk ak..
final xm..EOS 2..sgt penting untuk ak naik ke sem seterusny..
lgpun lec x abes2 pesan "dis sem is the most tough sem"
huhu..

tambah2 dgn masalh kesihatan ak..mcm dlu..
punca : STRESS!! ohh no..
ak ttp pg jump doctor wlpn ak taw ape puncenya, tkot de masalah len..
tp same cm dlu..ak still mtk ubat..
tp delay la..mkn pas abes xm..hoho!
ak xnk ade gangguan sepanjang bulan ni..

tp mjur ade parents,kwn2 yg slalu support ak!
thanks!! (:
kdang2 kite bkn slalu kuat..
ble da lame study,menghadap buku..datang terpikir..
"btul ke care ak study, dpt ke ak igt semua, dpt ke abeskn study smua topic,dah ke ak study semua point penting"
sokln ni kdg2 dtg bwt ak lg tensen..
ape yg ak dpt bwt..hanye solat n  berdoa n harapkn pertolongan dari-Nya
tiade yg lg berkuase dr Dia..

hidup ak hari2.." study,study,study n study"
ni pengorbanan yg ak kna bwt untuk dpt result ok wlpn x bp gempak..
harap2 dpt pass n urusan ak dipermudahkan..
last week balik trg..bwt muet..mujurla "kacang" je..
kalau x,sia2 ak balik..bukan bley ct lame pun..
balik sehari je..
huhu..

semalam..k.ja  a.k.a *ish ne ley gtaw* haha..
untung dpt ym ngn die..
byk advise ak dpt dr die..
semua yg menyedarkan ak..thanks k.ja..
u really support me walaupun kdg2 die letih tp ttp ade ms sekejap untuk ak..
advise die..aishh~ cm taw je ape yg ak sdang bwt..haha..
for me..die sgt hebat..dpt rempuh semua sem..ak fikir mesti result die sgt gempak..
xyah ckp pun mmg gempak lah..
ayat die yg bwt ak  ckup terharu "k.ja bleh nmpk dr k.ja  dlu dlm diri farah"
ske dpt advice die..arap2 hri2 ley dpt tips dr die.. ;p
ak nk jd cool cm dier wlpn course ni ssh..
haha..hopefully.. "-_-"

:: open-house sem 3 ::

act,no mood to continue writing on my blog..haha
mybe next tyme..
i need to study..
wish me luck 4 my toughest xm..huhu..
i need ur support my fwen..
have nice day!

:: mood - rayer ::

taun ni rayer ak seminggu..
haha..malam ni bru balik kl..
walaupun sampai uma pg rayer..tp seronok!! :)
seharian aritu x tidow..
lepas pg kubur adik..kitorg stu family pg uma tok..
2 dua kg sebelah uma je..jd lepas g uma tok belah abah,lepak kt uma tok belah ma lak..
hehe..seharian duk kt kg..
lepas tu singgah kt uma kwn lame ak..die da nk fly..so..beraye la skali kt uma die..hehe
sebelah petang,balik uma..xlarat eh..
mate berat gler2..
tp mk sdare, pk sedara lak dtg..
xjd rancangn ak..tugas ak?? kt dpur jelaa..
mlm lak family ajak pg uma mk sdare..ak btul2 xlarat..
malass gler..kul 9 ak da tido..xpg la uma mk sdare..

rayer ke-2..

kwsan uma ak mmg jammed..

nk kuar jejalan pun xley coz de open-house..

seharian duk uma jela..rayer ke-3 pom cmtu..

mmber dtg uma..mk sdare pun ade..sepupu semuala..

tp beshh gak..dpt lepak ngn membe2..

nk kuar uma pun panas memanjang..ptg lak asyk ujan je..

rayer ke -4..

adik ak da kna ballik perak..praktikal..

seronok dgr die cerita pasal life kt hospital..

cane nk handle pt mcm2 penyakit n life docs kt cne..

sampai tokwan ak pun yg tkot nk msuk hosp 26hb da de cnfident..

hahaha..

rayer ke-5..

ak x study harini..

coz seharian duk berjalan je..

pg2 lg tokwan dtg uma n kjutkn ak suh mndi..

tanyer nk g ane..die ckp nk ajak p umah sedare kt chalok barat..

ak pun follow jela..

sampai ke petang duk sne..

tmbah lak ngn jalan jem..urgghh paling ak x suke!!..

mse balik,parents ak nk g hospital trg tgk jiran ak yg sakit..

ak ngn adik kcik 2 org g lepak kt kfc..hoho..

rmai gler org..

aritu jgak ak taw yg membe skolah rendah dlu kawen!!

terkejut sakan ak..

umo bru 20 tue..mude lagi~~~

ble dgr pendapat abah,brula pham..

ak?? huhh..lg 10 taun kot..calon pun xde lg..hehe

rayer ke-6..

da tbe ms adik2 ak balik skolah..

tggal ak sorg kat uma..mlm ni balik ar..hehe

senyap plak la uma ak..

nk tggu berkumpul cmni bkna senang..

huhuhuhu...

ble nk balik kl ni..

susah je ati ak..

bukan pe..

kala balik..keje bertimbun2..

study.study.study.study.study x abes2..

tp nak  wat cane..

mmg 5 taun keje ak camtu je..

redha jelaa.. tp dwt rayer taun ni bayak gak dpt banding ngan taun2 lepas..

haha..ak pose pnuh kot taun ni.. ;p

kepada kwn2 ak yg x sempat nk jumpe tu..

selamat hari rayer..

maaf zahir batin..

except one..he's ruined my whole life..

:: taylor swift _ fearless ::

 :: lurve story :: ....

i miss damn muchh diz moment

 truely..

but i can't tell him...

mybe..

forever..

becoz..

impossible...

he's not one for me..

huhu

^_^

:: undefined feeling ::

S.E.B.A.L  S.E.B.A.L  S.E.B.A.L...
huhuhu..
tinggal sorg je kt rumah..
yg lain semua balik rayer..
x beshh langsung..
nk nangis rase..tp xde sape yg dengar..
bwt penat je..
huhuhuhu..

nak balik..nk balik..nk balik rumah mlm ni..
xnk da tggu esok..
lambat..
huhuhu..

ade die pun x sporting langsung!
x.suke! x.suke! x.suke!.. :(
m.a.r.a.h  g.e.r.a.m  x.p.u.a.s.a.t.i  s.e.d.i.h  b.e.n.g.a.n.g  semua ade..huhu
no one could understand me!
t.e.n.s.i.o.n nyer..
xde mood nk berayer dah..
xde mood nk study jgak!

:: yeppy!! ::

alhamdullilah..
hehe..seronok sgt..
coz xm cpr passed..xyah da repeat ke re-test ke re-sit ke..sewaktu dengan nyer la..
lepas stu dugaan..hehe..
lepas ni fokus summative ngan EOS je..
kala ley ak nk bwt gempak result xm kali ni.. *mesti*
hehe..semua pilihan ak..nk xnk je..
so ak kna study kuat sket larhh kn kalo nk result xm gempak.. :)
berkorban sket je..lepas xm boleh ak rehat puas2 kt umah..
3 bulan ct..hohoho..
x sabar rasenyer..
hihi..
chaiyok2 farahin!! ;p

arini ade stu lec je..tp x beshhnyer mms lewat ptg la plak..
so decide balik uma,bwt pbl n revise ape2 yg patut..
coz sabtu ni dah nk balik rayer da..
hoorayy!! hehe..
taun ni nk beraye ngan sepupu,sedara semua..
kwn2 dr sek rendah sampai la menengah..kolej??hmm kala dorg still ade kt m'sia la..
hehe..

have a nice day  ^_^

:: 20 years oledei ::

20 years tu my age..hehe..
just nk muhasabah diri sendiri..
tp kala sape2 terbace blog ni..bguslah..
ley kongsi pengalaman hidup ngan korang.. :)

dr umo setahun jagung sampai skunk (remaje heheh)
da banyak belajar dr pengalaman sendiri..
dr kecik walaupun ank sulung, my mum & dad selalu risaukan ak lebih dr adik2 yg laen..
rmai org ble tgk ak ckp ak ni ank bongsu..no larhh..

dr darjah 1 my mum da aimed ak untuk belajar btul2 n dapat result cemerlang..
ak x stress sbb tu yg ak nk dalam hidup..ms umur 4 taun my mum da aimed ak nk jd doc..
abah x ckp pe..sbb die taw tu yg terbaik untuk ak..n ak pun x protes..sbb tu yg ak nk..
oleh sbb my mum tu cg kt skolah ak dlu, jd disiplin ak ni bgus gak la..haha..
lepas dpt rezuk upsr..ak jd role model untuk adk2 ak..hasilnya semua dapat 5A..
alhamdullilah..

lepas upsr, ak dpt tawaran masuk SESMA..
mula2 sedeh la jgak coz semua my frens dpt sbp hebat2.. MCKK, SDAR, STF, TKC..
tp xpe..SESMA pun ok perghh..hehe..cg2 kt skolah tu semua dedikasi..hehe
lgpun blaja kt mane2 pun same..quality bkn skolah but kt dri kite sendiri !!
windu lak kt SESMA..t ak da berjaya,nk gak balik skolah tu jumpe cg2 kesayangn ak..hehe xyah mention name la..

kehidupan ak kt SESMA selama 5 taun tu banyak gak ar dugaan nyer..
xyah cite ar..ak dr bdaq pendiam dlu jd daq periang, pandai usik org..tp tetap baik..haha..
ramai kwn ak knal..ade yg baik..musuh dalam selimut pun ade..
tu lah rencah kehidupan kn..
ms ak F2..first tyme dpt kad bufday dr kwn lame ..igtkan dah lupe..gembira sgt2 tyme tu..haha..
F3..mmg banyak dugaan..study gile2..n paling buat semangat ak runtuh tyme tu ble adik ak meninggal..
xde semangat nk study & balik skolah..tp my mum yang banyak bg support + advice kt ak..
akhirnya ak dpt jgak result pmr cemerlang tyme tu..adk2 ak da kna cabar ngan abah untuk dpt rezuk lg baik dr ak..hasilnya semua adik2 follow ak..8A..kcian dorg..

form 4 & 5 jalan hidup ak kt SESMA berliku2..banyak dugaan..
10 subjek..bwt ak gle..lg2 addmath..fuhh..malu nk tgk result..trookk!!
tambah lg dgn hal yg gle2 yg x pernah ak pk sebelum ni..
ble da jd cmtu..ak cr helah nk protect dri sendiri..hehe..menjadi jgak..dapat gak fokus study betul2..
walaupun rezuk xm x berapa gempak,alhamdullah rezuk spm ak melayakkan ak dpt tajaan jpa bwt medic..
my target tercapai!! ak rase ak lah org yg paling bahagia dalam dunia ni..
my mum n dad sgt gembira..ak puas dpt tunaikan harapan mereka walaupun ni bru permulaan bg ak..
form 5..tersangatlah tersiksa..kelas siang malam.. n selalu terkena dgn cg fizik..hehe..
ak x brp minat dgn subjek ni jd kurang bg komitment la..
tp sgt la rindu kt kwn2 ak kelas 5UA dlu..harap2 dpt jump korang suatu hari 6t.. mishh u all..

 :: my best friends forever.. <3 tertinggal lg 2 org..hehe ::

:: da tunaikan permintaan kwn baik ak..hehe.. ngat! u r in d photo :) ::

lepas spm..bwt a-level kat KTT..
mula2 rase cm xley nk teruskan sbb rase cm ak x mampu bwt..
mujurla ak 2 org kwn baik ak bwt program ni same2 kt ktt.. farah & lijek..kiteorg satu kelas ms kt sesma n rancang nk amik medic [ cite2 ms form 5 ] hehe..walaupun lain2 negara,kiteorg still support each other untuk terus berjaya..

ms ni jgak bnyak dugaan yg ak kna hadapi..
tp mujur la ak x terpesong jauh..
thanks 4 ur advice..
ak muhasabah diri ak n fokuskan matlamat ak..
kwn serumah ak..ima, muni & zu yang banyak dgr masalah ak n bg support tym ak down..
thanks korang..
ms tggal 3 bulan..n ak tungkus lumus revise bio + chem + phys yg paling ssh ak nk terima coz x minat dr skolah men lagi..nk bwt cmne pakse gak semata2 untuk lpas point..
exm ni paling susah2 giler bg ak.. tp bkn nasib ak..

 :: my ex-classmate all & alu 16 ^_^ wish u all luck!! ::

tp alhamdullilah..dpt jgak ak bwt medic kat IMU..
bkn calang2 univer bg ak..
banyak dugaan kt cni..nk2 course die..teramatlah tersiksa..
so..dah lbih kurang 3 taun hidup berdikari kt kl..
banyak da ak belajar erti hidup & da bleh nilai seseorg tu cmne.. (psyco lak..hehe)
boys ..?? only wasting my time..go ahead!!
tp btul..bulan pose ni banyak bg hikmah kat ak..
fokus ak success in my study, my career n my family..
nothing more important than dis..
lepas korang dpt semua ni, nk njoy lebih2 xpela..hehee
bf, gf means NOTHING..
so dun't waste ur time, energy , money.. n HURT urself..!! haha.. (it's true)
be & tc of urself..be independent..

 :: be strong - hearted n u will success !! ::

hav nice day ^_^

:: she's d best in d world ::

ibu melahirkan kite sambil menangis kesakitan..
namun, masihkah kite ingin menyakitinya..?!
masih mampukah kita tertawa melihat penderitaan nya..?!
memakinya..?!
melawannya..?!
memukulnya..?!
sedarilah bahawa dalam dunia ni xde seorg pun yg sanggup mati demi ibu tp seorg ibu sanggup mati demi anaknya..

n seorg ibu tidak mengharapkan hadiah yg besar @ wang + harta dr anaknya..tapi hanya sebuah kejayaan dan menjadi anak yang baik kepada mereka [ my mum said ]

s.a.y.a.s.a.y.a.n.g.k.e.l.u.a.r.g.a.s.a.y.a [a.b.a.h.m.a.a.n.i.m.a.c.i.k.a.y.u.b.a.n.g.l.i.d.i.k.n.a] x lupe jgak kt b.a.n.g.f.i.k.r.i semoga bahagia kt sane ~ Al - Fatihah **

 :: we lurve our mum soooo muchh!! she's d best mum in d world ::

 :: terima kasih atas segala pengorbanan ma untuk family ::

 :: kpd ma, thanks sbb selalu bg semangat untuk kiteorg trus berjaya ::

 :: hehe.. ni adik kesayangan..gudluck 4 ur exm, i would't break my promise ::

 :: untuk abah, walaupun xbrp rapat along ttp sayangkn abah walaupun abah x pnh tahu ::

 :: kiteorg ade misi tsendri 5 taun akn dtg.. :) insya Allah  ::

:: seronok ::

semalam after kelas pg shah alam..
ape lg..shopping raye la..
hehe..
msuk je compleks pkns..fuhh..
banyak giler bju cantek2..harga pun chantek..hehe
2 jam gak la dlm tu..dapat jgak bju raye..
asalnyer xnk beli coz balik pun da pg raye..
xde maknenyer..
cantekk..nk tgk pic dier..??
ishh xle la..tggu raye ekk..hehe

pastu msuk mydin..x cr barang pun kt cni..
jam da 6.30.. cr tempt berbuka dpn ole2..
hehe..mknan mamak seyh..
walaupun x berape suke..redha jela..
haha..
tyme balik..jalan jem..sampai uma 9lebey kot..
trus solat,mandi n prepare xm sok hari..
tgk video pro-cpr sampai la ttdo..
bgun2 je laptop kat tepi tgk jam kul 5..
pe lg..bgun sahur la..sambung tdo balik..
hehe *penat*

pg imu kul 9..trus dgr briefing..
sejukk + ngantuk lupe bawak sweater..
ttbe rase seronok + excited ble tgk patung kt depan..no stress!! ;p
nk2 bayi puteh + itam..hehe..

abis je briefing kteorg praktis dlu..

hehe..cm2 gaye ade..

tp beshh.. fun!! :D

lepas tu start xm..

okla..my case simple je..

hopefully pass.. :)

now nk pg mask sementara tggu my sister sampai kl..

then nk pg bazaar.. yeppy!! :)

hav a nice day ^_^

:: the climb ::

hehe..
ske gilerr ak nyer csu session arini..
hehe that what i want..learning but fun, rileks not scary one..
yg lg untung hari ni..
we all dpat nice advice from him..that no bad rite..
he says :

• when i'm a medical student, only 5 hours for sleep , 3 hours for eat & bath n another 16 hours reading books..
• always say that u r the intelligent student if not, u r not here in front of me..
• always practice and learning n u will becoming a good student
• be smart , hardworking , n always learn then u will go far --  become excellent student and make ur dream become true 

i will follow his advice.. ^_^
very lucky i meet him..
at least ak dpt support alang2 semangat ak da nk runtuh ble banyak sgt kna study neyh..
btul lah org ckp..bulan pose ni banyak hikmahnyer..
Dr. Htin..memang bestt!! i like the way he teach us..!! FUN!!
walaupun mula2 ak cuak jgak coz worried dpt dr yg lagi satu..
hehe..
csu yang ak rase lama sebelum ni * 4.30-6.30* tp hari ni cm sekejap gler..

walaupun penat coz kelas pagi2 buta kul 8 da PBL..
mmg senyap ar ms discussion td..mengantuk pun blum ilang lg..huhu
sambung lak ngan 2 lec.. 10.30-12.45..
tp yg sedehnyer..
apela nk jadi yg mase depan pharmaco ak...
semua lec die setengah jalan je ak tahan..yg selebihnya tdow..
huhu..
sape yg amik pharmaco tu..tolong2 la ajar ak..
huhuhu...
sedeyh gler ni..

bru td ciapkan air topic..
akhirnyer dpt gak rase lega..xyah nk risau2 lg..
da submit..hehe..
malam ni kna habiskan CVS..
esok pg 8.30 ade study group..
thanks kwn2 for d study group..
at least ak pkse gak dri ak blaja..
dr melaghakn diri depan facebook..
haha...
n lepas habiskan CVS..fokus cpr xm weekend ni for practical la.. *tgk video pro-cpr n bace bku lg!!*
arap2 passed la.. =)

chaiyok2!! ^_*

:: azam baru ::

arini bgun tdow je ak dgn azam baru..
chaiyok2!! hahaha..
mane dpt semangat ni ntahla...
kul 8.30 ak dah ade kt library imu..
bwt revision sampai 10.30..
lect epidemiology.. lawak giler..ak asyk gelak je ngn prof.Yadav tu..
lect patho..da mcm dlm panggung wyg..dgr je citer dier sampai ak pun xsdr ble ley tertido..
hikhikhik...

abis lecture 12.30 ak pg library balik..smbung bwt revision..
lepas solat..msuk csu..hoho..
ape ntah name equipment tu.. sphyrognomanometer..??!!??
btol la tu kot..
BP ak..rendah giler..patutlaa..
tp mmg tahap normal ak cmtu kot.. *bkn atlet* haha

abes je..ak pg library balik..haha..sampai ar kul 5..
balik uma smyg n turun dapur..
hehe..
menu arini --> kari daging , sayur campur , ayam goreng..
hahaha mcm kt umah lak..
sejam kot duk dapur..

lepas berbuka..
ak smbung study balik yg petang td x abis lg..
ak harap 2 tjuk F1 ley abis esk.. * respi & urinary*
harap2 la..coz ak btul2 cuak daa.. huhu..
immuno da semakin bertambah tebal ak nyer lec notes yg blum revise..
hoho..mati ler..
papepun.. chaiyok farahin!! hehe :p

:: tired of being sorry ::

yg da lepas, lepas laa..
jgn la kacau lg..xggu dier pun mjur..
buang semua kenangan dlu tue..
xyah ungkapkan perkataan " sorry "
coz i hate diz word damn much after what u did 2 me

maybe you were right..

but baby i was lonely..

i don't want to fight..

tired of being sorry...

i standing on the street yeahh..

crying enough for you..

no one sees me...

under silver moon.. ^_^ 

<3 diz lyrics *_^

my dreaming guy.. :: Erique ::
*ni blog ak nyer kn, ske ati la nk tulis pe ;p *
hahaha.. ;p
lurve his style.. :)