:: drama kehidupan check it out! B-) ::

if u luv sum1 becoz u think dats he is really georgeous..

then it's not love..

if u luv sum1 becoz u shouldn't leave him becoz other think dat you shouldn't.

it's not love..it's compromise..

if u love sum1 becoz u think dats u cannot live without his touch..

then it's not love..it's lust..

if u love sum1 becoz u have been kissed by him..

then it's not love..it's inferiority complex..

if u love sum1 becoz u cannot leave him thinkin' dats it would hurt his feelin'

it's not love..it's charity..

if u love sum1 becoz u've share every single moments wif him..

then it's not love..its friendship..

BUT..

if u feel d pain of d other person more than him even he is unstable..

u're for him..dats love..

if u get attracted 2 d people but u still stay wif him without any regret..

dats love..

if u let him go knowing dat he has 2 go but he doesn't want to..

dats love..

guys may flirting around all d day..but before they go to sleep, they always think bout d gurl they truly care about..
guys are more emotional than u think, if they loved u at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then u think to let u go and it hurts every second dats day try..
guys go crazy over a girl's smile..
a guy who like u wants to be d only guy u talk to..

giving a guy a hanging message like
" u know what?..uh..nevermind "
would make him jump to a conclusion dats is far from wut are u thinkin'
and he'll assume he did sumthin' wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure out..
if a guy tells u about his problems..he just needs sum1 to listen to him..
u don't need to give advice..
a usual act dats proves dats d guy likes u when he teases u..
guys love u more than u love them..

guys u words like hot or cute 2 describe gurls..
they rarely use beautiful or gorgeous..
if a guy uses dats, he love u or likes u a whole heck of a lot..

if d guy do sumthin' stupid in front of  d gurl..
he will think bout it 4 d next couple days or until d next time he spends time wif a gurl..
if a guy looks unusually calm n laid back, he probably faking it and he is really thinkin' bout sumthin'

when a guy says he is going crazy bout d gurl..
he really is..
guys rarely say dats..

when a guy ask u to leave him alone, he just actually saying
"please come and listen to me"
if a guys start to talk seriously..
listen to him..
it's doesn't happen dats often, so when it's  does u know sumthin's up..
when a guy look at u for longer than a second, he definitely thinkin' somethin'...
guys really think dats gurl are strange and have unpredictable decision and are mad confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them..

a guy would give d world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day
no guy can handle all his problem on his own..
he's just too stubborn to admit it..

not all guys are rude
just becoz one rude
doesn't mean he represent all of them....
when a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to talk to u..
he really like u and wants to be wif u as much as possible..

even if u dump a guy montths ago and he loved u..
he probably still does and if he had one wish

it would be u to come back into his life...
-_-

:: hobi ak..ngee~ GIRLS GENERATION ::

::  gee - snsd ::

:: perfect for you ::

:: etude ::

:: genie ::

:: honey ::

:: lurve story ::

we were both young when i first saw u..

i close my eyes and d flashback starts

i'm standing there..

on a balcony of summer air..

see d light

see d party
 d ball gowns..

i see u make ur way through the crowd..

you say "hello"

little did i knoe..

dat u were romeo..

u were throwing pebbles..

and my daddy said  "stay away from juliet"

and i was crying on d staircase..

begging u please don't go..

and i said..

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone..

i'll be waiting all theres left to do is run..

u'll be d prince and i'll be d princess..

its a love story baby juz say yess!!

so i sneak out to d garden to c u..

we keep quiet becoz we're dead if they knew 

so close ur eyes

lets keep dis down for little awhile..

cause u were romeo i was d scarlet letter..

and my daddy said stay away from juliet..

but u were everythin' to me..

and i was begging to u please don't go

and i said romeo take me sumwhere we can be alone..

i'll be waiting all there left to do is run..

u'll be d prince n i'll be d princess..

it's a love story baby juz say yess!!

romeo save me..

they try to tell me how to feel..

dis love is difficult..

but it's real..

don't be afraid..

we'll make it out of dis mess..

it's a love story baby juz say yess!!

i got tired of waiting..

wondering if u'd ever come around..

my faith in u is fading..

when i met u on d outskirts of town

and i said..

romeo save me..

i've been feeling so alone

i keep waiting for u but u never come..

is dis in my head..

i dun knoe wut to think..

he knelt to d ground..

and pulled out a ring..

and he said..

marry me juliet..

u'll never have to be alone..

i love u and dats all u know..

i talked to ur dad..

and u'll go pick a white dress..

it's a love story..

baby juz say yesss

we were both young when i first saw u...

:: change~ ::

and its a sad picture..

d final blow hits u..

sumbody else get wut they wanted again and..

u knoe its all d same..

another time and places ..

repeating history and u get sick of it..

but i believe in wuteva u do..

and i do anything to c it through..

becoz dis thing will change..

can u feel it now..

dis wall dat they up to hold us back will fall down..

its revolution..

d time will come for us to finally win..

we sing hallalujah...

so we been outnumbered..

raided and now cornered..

it hard to fight when d fight unfair..

we getting stronger now..

found things they never found..

they might be bigger..

but we faster and never scared..

u can walk away sa we no need dis..

but sumthin in your eyes says we can bet dis..

dis thing will change..

can u feel it now..

dis wall dat they put up to hold us back will fall down..

its revolution..

d time will come for us to finally win..

we sing hallalujah...

we sing hallalujah~~....

tonite we stand without our knees..

find for wut we worked for all dis years..

and d battle was long..

and the fight overlast..

and we stand there

champions tonite..

 the was nite things change..

can u feel it now..

dis wall dat they put up to hold us back will fell down..

its revolution..

drag ur hands up..

coz we never gave in

we sing hallalujah..

we sang hallalujah..

hallalujah

< '_' >

:: unknown feeling ::

keliru..serabut.serabai...bosann....sepi......undefined....
masih mencari dri ak yg sebenar..
mane ilang..ntahla..
hurmm..

ct sem da nk abes..
lepas ni xley da nk lepak2 lg cm skrang..
xsempt nk rse bosan pom 6t..
huhu..

taun depan...2010...
mgkin untuk ak mulakan kehidupan bru..lupakn sengketa lama,kenangan yg byk mkn dri ak sndri..n jd dri ak yg sebenar.. N.U.R.F.A.R.A.H.I.N...
umur ak pun akan tergelincir 1 taun..
mknenya..21taun..ahhaha..
ak sepatutnya da jd lebih mature..
bknnya kebudak-budakan lg..
pkran ak patut lebih rasional..haha..ni ape yg ak harapkn dpt berubah
21...hmmm..da tua dah ak ni..
xpatut jd bolok2,xterurus..haha..

azam ak taun depan..
mmm..nk luangkn byk mse dgn family ak..
fokuskan pada study..biar lg gempak result yg kuar 6t..ahhaha..
berkawan biar seribu..bercinta tu lum sedia lg..ahhaha..biar parents ak sndri yg pilih..
ak xkesah..da kwn dgn org ni,tu salah..biar die cr sndri..ahhaha..
nk sgt bkal doc..mne ak nk cri..ak taw knp pilihn dorg cmtu..
supya dpt jg ak yg kdg2 gle2 sket..ssh nk jg ak sebnrnya..haha..
tp x smestinya doc kn..
penin kpale dorg jga ak sorg tp dorg xkesah sbb ak slalu bg ape dorg nk..dpt rezuk yg okla  ntuk cita2 ak..haha

n ak harap taun dpn adalah taun yg paling bernsib baik ntuk ak.. AMINN..
n ntuk bestfren ak..xkire la laki ke ppn..
korg d best..thanks dgr probs n bg nsihat kt ak..
iA..ak akn jd org yg berguna..lum terlewat ntuk ak mulakan semua ni..
ak bersyukur samp arini ak msih dberi pluang ntuk betulkan ape yg ak da bwt salah slma ni..

haha..yg pentg ak xkn post da crita ak yg sengal2 dalam blog ak ni..
smua tu mainan idup yg ak xtau mne penghujungnya..
yg ak xpasti ape akn terjd mse depan..
so xnk la ak pening2 kpale lg..
idup ni kna COOLL wlpn de msalah..always calm..
tu prinsip ak..
sampai cni jela blog ak kali ni..hehehe..
choww~ hav nice day.. ;-)

:: if heart can talk ::

.....it will be better..

yeahh!!

huhu..

so many things dats can't tell..

;(

hopefully one day, my heart can talk..

talk..talk..talk..and talk..

tell all d truth..

wut i'm feels, wut d reasons n Y i'd done all dats things

dats someones want 2 know from me...

so dats i no need to keep all dis things anymore..

which sometimes hurt me..

bcoz i'm tired already..

of not being myself..!!

hukhuk...

i want 2 be myself...

like in f3..

i'm free..can be friend wif anyone..seorg yg ske habiskn mse untuk study..study n study..x sakiti hati org lain..,periang, xmudah sensitif..

miss all my best friends..farah,lijex,saba,sanj,aina,milin,nadia,emie,linda,scholastica..huhu..

all wind orhkestra n pancaragam members.. sanj,deibs,alia,tie,eela,haniey,suha,aina...n all juniors..

kwn2 ak kls 5UA.. d best memory in SESMA...

n xlupa jga pd dorm mate ak..MERAH 2.. saba, t-rex, gmah and all juniors..

hasmira di UTP knalan mse educamp petronas..sikap yg sgt bertentangan dgn ak..(:..miss dats moment..

membe2 tangga 4 di KTT especially apartmen ak.. ima n zu di india n muni di mesir (:..

miss u all damn much!!

if ak dpt peluang kedua..

ak nk kembali ke zman skolah dlu..

n betulkan ape yg ak dah byk bwt salah skrg ni..

ak skrg...

jiwa sgt kosong..

dgn sape2 ak x bhgia..

ble jumpe die yg dpt bkak ati ak kali ke-2..igtkn dpt luangkn mse dgn die..

but i was wrong..

seem like he doesn't like..

i can't stand anymore..mybe he's not serious..

i dun know..

i hope one day, ak akan jumpa sum1 yg dpt bg ak kebahagiaan..

yg dpt sayang ak sepenuhnya..n paling ak harap..

yg seswai dgn jiwa ak..

yg bleh bkak ati ak ntuk terima die..

then i will be d one for him..

t8 care of him n love him wif all of my heart

no more playgurl....

hopefully my wish come true..

i dun want to be hurt anymore..

tired olidei..

juz trima wut happen next..

but ak bersyukur..

msih ade kwn2 yg dpt bwt ak gembira..

yg dpt lepak2 dgn dorg..dgr masalah ak..n bwt gile2..

korang sgt sporting..

syang korang sgt2..muahahaha!!

ak da xnk trus  konfius,sedeh2..

mulai esok ak nk mulakan hidup bru..

juz enjoy my life wif wut i have..

dun want to think bout something dats can hurt me anymore..

juz wanna be myself..

yg periang..open-minded n x emo lg..

p/s : k la..da tyme ak tdow..esok kna msuk clinic.. (:

HAVE A NICE DAY..

:: waitin' ::

waiting..waiting...and still waiting..

i dun care..

waiting 4 what i want..

although its hurt..

sorry..

i can't forget..

mybe forever..

or till i find d one like him..

D 1 LIKE HIM  MYBE..

:: apple ::

:: VALY - Yank ::

p/s : beshh gileerr lgu neyh.. ((:

yank, coba kau jujur padaku..

yank, photo siapa di dompetmu..

yank, kok kamu diam begitu..

sayank, jawab atau aku pergi sayank..

aku tak mau bicara sebelum kau cerita semua..

apa mau mu, siapa dirinya, tak betah bila ada yg lain..

jangan hubungi aku lagi,ini bisa jadi yang terakhir..

aku ngerti kamu, kau tak ngerti aku..

sekarang atau tak selamanya..

yank, jangan kira ku tak tahu..

yank, tak mudah kau bodohiku..

yank, tolong dengarkan lah aku..

tapi sayank, masih pantaskah kau aku panggil sayank..

"-_-"

:: ape yg ak rase... ::

adess!!!
post ak kali ni agak SENGAL!!~
ak harap xde org bce post ak yg ni..hahahahah

tp nk luah skitla..
ape sebenarnye mksud kala dah 3 taun kte cube lupakan die..msih x boleh jgak??!
3taun tu dah kire satu jangka mse yg lama..
mgkin die satu-satunya best bf yg ak ade..
ape yg ak rase..mcm semalam ak knal ngn die,gumbire dgn die..
padahal ak dah lame x jumpe die..ak benci diri die skrg..
egois, playboy n mcm la dri die perfect sgt! urghh!!
kebelakangan ni ak asyik teringt kt die..mkin nk lupa mkin ak teringat..
BODOH nya rase..huhuhuhu...
ape kna ngan ak ni..

kdg2 ak slalu gak bertanyer..
ya tuhan..kalau die bkn jodohku..knp x hilangkan die dr pkranku,ingatanku..
knp x biarkan ak gembira dgn org yg ak ade skrg..
yg syg ak lebih dr die syg ak..
kdg2 ak rase bersalah..
bile ngn org len..ak teringt kt 3taun ak xley lupe tu..
cmne ak nk berterus terang ngn die sedangkan hati ak pun xboleh lupakan die yg 3taun tu..

lagi ak dduk kt kg ni..lg ak teringt kt 3taun tu..
n faham2la..ngn die skrg ak slalu gado..die dduk barat ak duk timur..lg la berantam tiap2 ari..
smua ak nyer pasal la..tp die ttp sabar dgn ak..

tyme ak nk xm..lg truk die kna sbar ngn ak..
yela..tyme2 xm ni ak mls nk cmpr hal peribadi ngn study..
so dlm sebuln lebih jgak la ak xlyn die..
bkn nyer ak crg ngn die..tp ak kna fokuskn pd pelajaran ak..
tp die ttp sbr..PELIK ak..kalo org len da lme gado2 ngn ak then BLAAHH cmtu jea..

ak xtaw knp die sygkan ak sgt..
sdgkn ak bese2 je..banyak lg ppn lain yg die boleh dpt..
ak pernah uji die suh usha ppn lain..ape yg ak dpt..kna marah balik la..DIAM jela..

ak xdpt lupakan kisah lalu mgkin sbb ak blum jumpe yg btul2 seswai dgn jiwa ak..
kwn2 baik ak taw taste ak mcm mane..
tp ape nk bwt..
kbanyakan org yg ak knal..yg nakal2..
lepas knal ak..berubah jd baik..
bkn ak x suke..
tp..taste ak..lain dr org lain..
ntahla..
bingung..
malas ak nk pk..
juz ak xtau ape kna ngan ak..
" yg syg kt ak ade dpn mata..tp ak xnmpak..
ak xnk 6t dah hilang bru nk menghargai nya"..
-->  nasihat kengkawan yg slalu ak dpt..

kala ade pun..ak xknal..hahaha of course la!
kala ade pun..yg org.. mls beb!
kala ade pun.. ak plak yg bwt hal!

BUT NOTHING PERFECT!!
fuhhhh!!